I was dreaming of K.V.K. again. He has been coming in and out of my dreams lately. Normally, I would not bother about such dreams of ex-boyfriends, but dreams of K.V.K. always leaving me longing for him.
Now and then I would wonder if these dream actually mean anything, could be his way of communicating with me. At times, I do want to contact him again, but I really do not see why if I do not have any feeling for him as I did before.
I suppose I could treat him as a friend, and I am sure that he has accepted the fact that I was the one who let him go because I wanted to be with bigger a*s*o*e*s .
I know and I accept the fact that I am to blame for what happened to K.V.K. and I, but one day I just woke up and realized that it was just not acceptable to be with someone like him, sadly. Too bad he has not really proven himself otherwise. I know so well my family would not approve of such union between K.V.K. and I.
Deep down inside, I know that even though he might not have all the material things I look for in a guy, but he will always be a good guy.
Come to think of it, K.V.K. and I happened so many day, months, and years ago, he could not possibly still feel the same way as he did before. You know what it could just be hormones talking and making me long for something that is not there that might have nothing to do with K.V.K. — hahaha
